RANSVESTIA

- half time at a football game is definitely a no-no. I chose a perfect even- ing of dining, dancing, and then, while parked in my car, I prepared her with the importance of what I had to tell her.

I realized that my wording in explaining this was very important. I started out by saying, "Honey, I have a minor sex problem!" To this day I honestly believe that I blew it with my first sentence. Anyway, I then asked her if she knew what a Transvestite was, and she said no. I hand- ed her a dictionary and asked her to read the definition. After she read it, she didn't say anything, the silence was terrible. At this point I real- ized that I must start talking and try to explain in detail what an FP is. I started off by minimizing the whole thing, like it was nothing really important. I told her that I was under a doctor's care (lie), that he ad- vised me to obtain help from a girl for my activities (lie), that this was just a phase that I would get over in about a year (lie), that it was very common among all men and it's just kept hidden (lie). Well, after all those lies she accepted me and said she understood. We were married, and after approximately one week of marriage everything became a night- mare. For three and a half years I remained in a marriage that reflected back on all of those lies.

After my divorce I dated around and when I fell in love again I knew that I would have to approach the subject of being an FP a little different- ly this time. I had known this girl about four months, and we were very serious about each other. I knew she was very understanding, because she accepted a guy with legs that were shaved silky smooth. I told her that I had a rare hair disease, don't laugh, it's all I could think of. Anyway, she accepted this lie-whoops - here I went again. After a date one night I felt the time was right to tell her so I took her to my apartment and told her that I had something important to tell her. This time I decided to be completely honest, which was a definite step in the right direction. I told her that I was an FP and asked her to read some clippings from magazines and books that I had collected on the subject. After she read the articles I explained my desire for the feminine and told her that with the love we had for each other and considering how understanding she was, we could work things out. Then I found out she wasn't as under- standing as I thought, I haven't seen her since.

Well, so far I was a 100% failure in my efforts to find an understanding GG. I might point out that telling these girls that I was a TV didn't worry me because unless a girl just wanted to be terribly cruel, she wouldn't tell anyone my secret. Keep in mind also that I told only girls that I had begun to build a relationship with and that I knew cared enough for me to keep my secret.

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